Oh goodness, friend. Are you saying you are in the same boat?
I would be honoured if you did that, Kim! I would like nothing better than for people to feel a little more understood and a little bit less alone. If I can help to do that in some small way then I am delighted. Thank you for what you are doing.
Thank you friend, that means the world to me. I am happy that we are connected, but sad that we are connected by sadness. I am actually doing a lot better at the moment and I hope the same can be true for you.
Friend, I am so sorry to hear it. It sounds like we have felt similar things. I spent weeks in my room a few years ago. I hated going to the shared kitchen to make food, so I would go hungry all day and sneak out at night to cook.
I wish I knew what it is best to do. But I do not think I am qualified to give advice. I do know that what I did is to take a year out from university and go home. This was not easy, because my family situation was not easy. But I saw a therapist for a few months and turned my thinking around. Now I am back and much happier.
I hope you can find someone or something that helps you.
Friend, nothing could mean more to me. I just wrote down some of the thinks that were sludging up my brain, is all. It has been amazing to me how many people have told me they feel the same.
It seems we are never the only ones.
I don’t think I am qualified to give any advice. But I would encourage you to reach out, talk to people, find the ones that will help you. I am doing better now, and I have seen how helpful some people can be. You do not have to suffer, there is hope.
Thank you so much for the message, that is very kind of you. I have not posted for a while, it is true. This blog was always an experiment, and I found that when I was most depressed I was least in the mood to write about it, and when I was less depressed what I wrote sounded silly. Making a blog about how you do not feel like doing anything (even making blogs) sort of has a roadblock built in. But I may come back to it, who knows.
As for how I am, it continues to be variable. I just saw a new therapist for the first time today though. I am hopeful that a course of CBT will do me good. Oh, and I have been given some more meds by my GP. So wheels are in motion.
If you or anybody else reading this is in a similar position, I offer you a virtual hug and the assurance that things can get better. It is a struggle, but everything worth doing is. Seeing the struggle as hopeless is the problem, and that is a symptom of the illness and not a reasoned judgement. You can make it, friend.